Today has not been a fun day. I would not have written a blog except that I thought it might help someone else. My depression and anxiety took over early this morning and didn't want to loosen their hold on me. Nothing satisfied me. Nothing helped. I felt sad, hopeless, and distressed. I couldn't even go to church. I just wanted to go to sleep and sleep all day. I started with a migraine. However sleep eluded me. I tried to do my bible study, yet I couldn't focus on any one word, much less sentence.
Finally I decided to take a shower and get dressed up and see if I would feel better. When I was finished, my husband came and asked me to help him with a chore. Of course it was the last thing I wanted to do (running the wood splitter). However I said yes. I can only say that it took my mind of myself (which is very important when depressed) and he said I really helped him. It also plum tuckered me out. I came home, took another shower and slept for 2 hours. Since then I have been cooking dinner and cleaning the kitchen.
I can honestly say that I am ready for sleep to come tonight. Days aren't always this bad and I am ready for this one to be over. I am mentally and physically tired.
So to those of you out there who have these times/days, know that you aren't alone. I still know I have won the victory. I know the end of the story. Jesus comes back for all those who believe in Him. So I win. I may have lost some battleground today, but victory in the end is mine. And yours too.